I “have to’ write…….

Writer’s block. Victor, whomevernithehell said you were a writer? YOU’RE A BLOGGER. Big diff. If you’re a WRITER, you have READERS. If you’re a BLOGGER, you have a GD CORD you plug in the wall and some kinda DSL-Dial up bill you must pay.

Wow, guess he ‘had to’ of gotten up on the wrong sidea bed.

Ahem. “Bloggers’ block. Better? Yes, thank you.

So here I sit. I ‘have to’ write. It’s expected. The one or two that occasionally stop by will no longer do so if I don’t. I have to. Remember when you were a kid? You wanted freedom from this, freedom from that, the ability to do whatever in the heck you wanted to? Then onea them parents would step in and say “no, you ‘have to’! WHY? “Because I said so.”

‘Have to’s’ have a negative connotation where results are either undesirable or unclear. I have to go to the dentist. I have to fill out my tax forms. We procrastinators delight in sidestepping this shit.

Some things, yeah… Family responsibilities…….. Sleep… Eating……. Personal Hygiene….

Onea them do-gooder's books I read online said “substitute “have to” with “get to.” Actually, I tease many with just that. “I have to go to a meeting.” NO, you GET to go to a meeting. “I have to go to :Lauren’s soccer game tonight.” NO, you GET to go to Lauren’s soccer game tonight. I play it at work, you oughta try. You too can become a smartass. It’s fun!

Onea them shrinks immersed in healing the soul suggests using ‘choose to… “even if it’s forced, after awhile, it’ll be natural and it’ll really change ur outlook on life.”

Ok, I choose to write. I get to write. Brb, I get to go poop.

And yet another online expert’s take: subbing ‘must do, IF”….

Must do, if………. If I wish to eat, I must take certain steps to obtain food. If I wish to practice medicine, I must acquire the necessary knowledge and skills. If I want to have a happy marriage, there are things I must do to achieve that value. In general, we cannot achieve values without effort, and the nature of the effort is determined by the facts of reality—specifically the law of causality, which relates actions to consequences, means to ends. In that sense, there are a great many things we have to do. But there is always an implicit "if": if we want to achieve the goal in question. Any enterprise depends on our commitment to the goal, and nothing in reality forces that commitment on us.

I must do this blog, IF I wanna keep the one or two that come around around.

I hate to pay rent/mortgage. I have to pay light company. I have to go to work. I have to put gas in my car to make it to work. I have to “here, sit there, in that cubicle right there.”

Back. I had to, er, got to, chose to, must do, IF, took my son thru the Redbox thingy. Notta bad deal. $1 for a movie. (Close your ears Marilyn.. Ex.. No, she don’t read this.. But she usedta HATE me talking about stuff like this.. I ‘had to’ really watch it. NO MORE!).. Not long ago, my bank account said “you have $67 left in your account.” So’s… I rented me (Maynard did, he ain’t got no debit card).. Like 7 movies total on two different days…

Oh shit. I guess my mortgage check beat the Redbox fees to the bank. Uh huh, seven $33 overdrafts for $1 Redbox movies. Bank said “sorry… have to charge you.“ I tried using “get to charge me”, “choose to charge me” “must if”, still didn’t help. Ok Mar, you can open ears again.

I have bathwater running. Have to go soon. I choose to. I get to. I must, if, I want to feel clean.

In closing, I ain’t real sure how I feel about “have to.” I’m way too liberal in many things, may be good, may be bad. I love asking “why?”.. I love when the ‘bigs’ are around at work, and everyone runs to “have to” in fear - and then I thinka some mostly smartass thing to say.. U know.. Like.. “It’s 4:30 and it’s Friday.. The heck are you still doing here?” Cowering, to me, is definitely not a have to.

I do like the substitute ‘choose to’ though. Right up my alley. Life’s all about choice. And sometimes have to. Done. Water’ll be cool if I don’t go. I have to wash yesterday’s yuck off me.. If I must.

Loveya.. (that ain’t a have to, it’s a want do, I do kinda thing)……. Victurd