For closure....... Dirty Laundry....

I make my living off the Evening News
Just give me something-something I can use
People love it when you lose,
They love dirty laundry

For closure. E style. I get on the Internet, yes FB in particular, and I see/read tirades by fellow friends about fellow friends without naming names and I think to myself "geesh, that's so stupid, and very ridiculous"... THEN, I get on here and blog doing the same GD (gosh darn) thing! Victor you're an idiot!

Well, I coulda been an actor, but I wound up here
I just have to look good, I don't have to be clear
Come and whisper in my ear
Give us dirty laundry

Kick 'em when they're up
Kick 'em when they're down
Kick 'em when they're up
Kick 'em when they're down
Kick 'em when they're up
Kick 'em when they're down
Kick 'em when they're up
Kick 'em all around

Very recently, I got ridda all things needed in a house.. lawnmower.. washer/dryer.. weed eater.. edger.. a bigass ladder... whatever is was that I needed to dump in a move from a 4 bedroom house, to a one bedroom apartment... but.. I got ridda even more than that...

We got the bubble-headed-bleach-blonde who
Comes on at five
She can tell you 'bout the plane crash with a gleam
In her eye
It's interesting when people die-
Give us dirty laundry

For way too many years, I lived in a house I never shoulda kept. Admitted depression (NO VICTOR.. NO dirty laundry) [sorry, if the truth hurts - bugoff! ] ahem, depression contributed to the "Oh.. the roof is leaking? Oh well.. the AC is out? Who cares..the hot water heater is inop.. ah, it's all good".. There usedta be four in that house... then three.. then two.. and for way too many years: one.


Is the head dead yet?
You know, the boys in the newsroom got a
Running bet
Get the widow on the set!
We need dirty laundry

You don't really need to find out what's going on
You don't really want to know just how far it's gone
Just leave well enough love
Eat your dirty laundry

Kick 'em when they're up
Kick 'em when they're down
Kick 'em when they're up
Kick 'em when they're down

Kick 'em when they're up
Kick 'em when they're down
Kick 'em when they're stiff
Kick 'em all around

A dumpster. I was excited to rent a 20 cuft dumpster. A house, with sheetrock falling due to leaks in three rooms (My cousin is my insurance man.. roof was old, not weather damaged.. I COULDN'T turn it it.. - I couldn't wait to get out. I filled that dumpster up with things from 'yesteryear' I'd been tripping over, rediscovering, been reminded of - that many a time I was on the edge with "I'VE GOTTA GET THE HELL OUTTA HERE!" followed by more and more time, sitting, not doing anything.. I filled that sucker (the 20 cuft dumpster)to the very top - and whilst you can't leggo'a regret, I found I could toss 'nifty little trinkets and ahm "____ picked that out give it a good toss into the dumpster" - and I did. Cleansing. For closure, E style.

Dirty little secrets
Dirty little lies
We got our dirty little fingers in everybody's pie
We love to cut you down to size
We love dirty laundry

I'm in an apartment now. I now spend $600 less per month to live. I likes my apartment. It's me, who I am, what I be, today/tomorrow. So now maybe, anyone that traverses this goofy website - can mebbe better comprende the "write positive stuff to yourself Victor 'cause life IS really good" need, checkenginelight.blogspot.com happens/exists.

We can do "The Innuendo"
We can dance and sing
When it's said and done we haven't told you a thing
We all know that Crap is King
Give us dirty laundry!

I am refreshed. Rejuvenated. Selfishly, my new place is "all about me." Time. Way past time. Objects in the rear view mirror may be closer than they appear - but that's ok baby, I'm headed in the other direction. Dirty laundry, sorry, kinda, not really. I have AC now. My roof is intact. I can take a hot bath (yeah, sad eh?)..Hell, I might even have guests over now. I talk too much.. I type too much.. Dirty laundry.

The last exit from that driveway that day - a S-eatin' grin was plastered on my face. I'll be fine and dandy. Dirty laundry.. for closure.. E style.

Happy day.. if you see someone without a smile - ask 'em "whatinthehell is wrong with you?"... Seeya later 305 Lee Drive. I will/do remember the good times. It was time. Past time: for closure. Love, Dirty Laundry Victurd.